History repeats itself; it’s annoying. And that’s actually an understatement.
I should have learned my lesson by now. Now what? This always happens every year! The moment she sent me the message inviting me to go out tonight, I felt happy but I knew it’s gonna be a problem. Still, I insisted to meet her again. Wtf! It has always been like this. AND I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THIS! All I want is to save the friendship, that’s it. *Sigh*
So here and now, waiting again. Waiting like forever. Waiting like what happened before, last year to be exact. Waiting and waiting and waiting. Waiting until I receive a message to meet her where. And earning the anger of my father after knowing that I am still out this late. Not late for me though, it’s still 10 PM.
I knew she was coming home. And I had made it clear to myself that I would just feel perfectly fine if we do not see each other this year. But she wants us to meet so I agreed because I still care. And now, she’s G0d-knows-what-happened!
I am getting tired of waiting. I wished I had just gone home. I wished I had not agreed to meet her on the first place. If I only knew this would happen – but yes, I knew, I was just stupid.