Future Workaholic

All creatures deserve some time to rest, and so do I. Actually, the time spent waiting for Graduation Day was a rest in itself. Technically, yes – except for anxiety attacks like sa tagal ng paghihintay ay baka hindi na matuloy. Pwede ba yun? Anyway, a month of waiting is in fact tiring. What else did I do aside from sleep, eat, text, watch tv, read books I’ve already read, read blogs, and blah blah blah? Life could not go on like that. I’d bore myself to death! Knowing me? I get bored so easily. Nakakatulog nga ako sa rollercoaster eh. HAHA.

Comm Arts Graduates with UP officials

So that was why months ago, I decided that I should be working immediately after graduation. I don’t want to get stuck at home – jobless and broke. Luckily, even before graduation, I got hired – in a job that most people find temporary, inconvenient, and as they say “not really a career.” But with the global financial crisis, who can afford to be choosy? Not me. Not when you’re offered a very competitive compensation. O, don’t battle with me. Case study ko yang GFC sa Crisis Communication ko. HAHA. Alam ko rin yang mga kaartehan ng financial meltdown. Huh.

The End

APRIL 22, 2009

After four years…

after grad ceremony

I am officially leaving college.

Ste, Me and Gold

All’s well that ends well.

With everybody

So long mga kaibigan.

Weee!

Till we meet again.

(Semi) Final Pages

Yes! I’m back to earth!!!

Last night, I didn’t know why the hell I needed to stare hard on my journal (yes, the hard bound) for no apparent reason. I didn’t know why tears suddenly fall from my eyes. I wasn’t even thinking. I was overwhelmed by my subconscious thoughts for quite some time. All I knew was that I was a bit tired from swimming the afternoon out. READ: soaking my feet on the cold water just to get wet, and talking to an invisible friend again.

And then it all dawned on me. It was nostalgic.  So nostalgic that I found myself writing my last journal entry in Tagalog.

**Ito na ang magiging mga huling pahina na susulatan ko – dito sa talaarawang ito na nagsilbing karamay ko sa aking paglalakbay. Paalam. Ako’y magbubukas na naman ng panibagong talaarawan para sa panibagong yugto ng aking buhay. Hanggang sa muli. **

I am not even sure if I can talk much about it. If I have my way, I’d love to. But I don’t know how to start.

Goin’ Senti

Ok, it’s not that I don’t feel like writing/blogging. It’s just that I need to collect my thoughts before blogging a sensible something. I need to put myself together just so I won’t burst into tears. I need to prepare myself so that I’ll be able to face the real drama. Just give me time.

I hope this photo will help.

Taken during my second year in college, that’s about three years ago.

That was when I thought it would be nice if I’d try something new.

Now, I’m leaving college. NO. YES. I’m leaving. SOON.

How SOON is NOW. Confused.

I’ve been into a lot of thinking lately.

And you know how hard it is to think.

Eleven more days before graduation.

I know I’m off for something new again.

Farewell.

Grr.

Give me time, ok?

Gotta Go My Own Way

Just what is it that I should wait for…

…when I only have myself to depend on?

It’s just plain hard to explain. People expect me to understand them. They believe that I am always that understanding person they know.  Yes, I always try hard to understand them because I believe that all things happen for a reason.

Sadly, as much as I want to understand some things, I just don’t. So I end up bluntly saying that Yes, don’t worry, I  understand. Even when I really don’t.

But what choice do I have? I cannot just budge in other people’s lives. Definitely, I cannot tell them what to do.

I have always been strong and eager to learn. As much as possible, I want to at least prove to myself that I can do things alone because I know I cannot always depend on others.

Grr. As much as I want to say a lot about this, there’s just no easy way to do so. So let this stuff remain vague.

Sleepless

First things first.

All my efforts paid off.

I have never felt so relieved. Yesterday, I already got my final thesis grade. It was more than what I expected. In short, I was happy. I am happy.

I also got my final grade in my deadly Crisis Communication class. Again, it was more than what I expected. Happy. Proud of myself.

My last night’s motto was:  Sleep is for the weak.

My thesis buddy Gold and I spent the night printing all six copies of our thesis. We started at around 7pm until 11pm, we had our late dinner and then resumed the printing at around 1am until 7am! Now you know what I mean.

So I had to do some stupid things just to stop myself from dozing off (yeah, like reading Finding Mr. Right). Ugh. And it was even a wrong move, because I got even more sleepy! Grr.

The sound of the printer was nostalgic. Tengkk, tak tak tak, tennngkk! Ugh.

And finally, just this afternoon, we were already given the approval sheet for our thesis after the final checking.

Yes, we already had our thesis manuscripts bookbound after the checking.

Dugo’t pawis ang inalay namin sa kasuluk-sulukan ng Bolton para lang makamura sa bookbinding. Whew.

Salamat Lord. Dakila ka. Mahal kita.